Holy ****

(fill in the blank with your own word)

I'm having another kid.

Sometimes the reality is shocking. Sometimes it's exciting. Sometimes it is downright overwhelming. I know I had one of the same fears with Olivia - will I love her? How will I love her like I love my first. And of course, those concerns disappeared right away.

My other main fear is just how life will change with 3! Where will the carseat go? When will I get "alone" time? How am I going to handle middle of the nite feedings/changings? How am I going to find time with the girls? etc, etc! I just want him to get here and move on and stop this anticipatory anxiety!

p.s. Baby Field - if you read this someday....I DO want you and love you!!! It's just your mommy's style to worry about stuff!!