Changes

Isabel has 1 more week of school before summer break. That means I have 2 more mornings alone with Olivia and 1 more "lunch date" alone with Isabel before things CHANGE! Next Fall, both of the girls will be in pre-school from 8:30-3:00 every day. I know lots of good things will come from it, but today I am sad that things are changing.

You know how when you have babies and you can't wait for them to do things? To smile, to sit up, to walk, to talk, etc? Well - I just want time to stand still for a little longer! How is it possible to have your heart ache and rejoice at the same time!? I'm not sad that they are becoming independent and that they are growing into their own selves. I'm sad because it feels like I'm losing a couple of special friends - my weekly "lunch date" and my "errand date". I know I'll find a way for special time alone with each of them, just not sure what that will be.

My routine has been somewhat consistent for 4 years - 3 days at work, 2 days at home per week. Next fall it will be 4 days of work. 1 day at home (alone). And getting the girls at 3:00 or 3:30 every day I just have to keep reminding myself to stay in the present. TODAY. Not 3 months from now.

TODAY. A beautiful morning with Oliva, spent at a garage sale, at Panera, at the grocery store and at home. An afternoon with naps (let's hope), and a school picnic. That's TODAY. And I'm grateful.